Inside.

You know you love me, but you won't admit.
Instead you think it is best to hurt me.
When actually it is you who are hurting.


Do yourself a favor and stop whatever it is that you are doing.
Because none of it is giving you any good.
If it gives you pleasure then you are rotten.
Inside.


I do not want to hate you.
Nor pretend to like you.
I just want you to know.
That I want to love you.

Usaha sia-sia.

Setakat ni England dah main dua perlawanan. Dan dua-dua perlawanan ni aku tertidur ayam di minit 80 ke atas. Perlawanan yang bosan dan tidak memberangsangkan mahupun merangsangkan. 

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Tapi diorang ni bukan pasukan utama yang aku sokong. Maka, tak terkilan sangat kalau tak lepas peringkat kumpulan ni. Hahaha. Cuma kasihankan Rooney saja.

Jadi, kalau rasa tak boleh tidur cuba tengok perlawanan England dengan pasukan entah siapa siapa. Kemungkinan besar cara tu berkesan mendatangkan mengantuk secara tiba-tiba.

* menguap *

Time of your life.

Pernah suatu ketika dulu terdetik dalam diri aku yang aku takkan dapat zuriat. Scary kan ? Especially bagi seorang yang sukakan kanak-kanak kecil dan tak kedekut dengan kasih sayang (?!). Selalunya, bila macam tu apa yang aku fikirkan tu akan jadi kenyataan. Dah banyak kali aku pernah rasa macam tu. Perasaan yang beritahu kita yang perkara yang kita jauhkan tu akan berlaku pada kita. Pernah rasa ?

Walaupun tak semestinya ia betul, tapi aku tetap rasa down gila bila fikirkan pasal tu. Aku tau rezeki, jodoh semua di tangan Tuhan. Tapi kadang-kadang semangat tak cukup kuat untuk lupakan.


Mungkin sebab terlalu kerap alami kesakitan ketika datang bulan buat aku tak yakin pada ke-perempuan-an aku. Lupa lah kat mana baca, tapi ada sebut yang sesiapa yang dysmenorrhea ada problem kat bahagian reproduktif dia dan boleh menyebabkan kesukaran untuk mengandung. Entah, aku pun tak sure la. Sesiapa yang boleh bagi input sikit, dipersilakan. =))


Lagi orang cakap, lepas kahwin sakit tu hilang. Kena kahwin cepat ni, lega sikit. Huehuehue. Kalau tak tiap-tiap bulan nak menanggung sakit sampai rasa nak tercabut pinggang dan kaki. Mungkin sebab tu Tuhan ciptakan wanita dengan kekuatan di bahagian dalaman dan bukan kekuatan luaran.

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Wo-oh-oh-oh-oh !

Ada satu ketika kita perlu suntik sesuatu yang baru untuk kekal lama. Aku dah suntik, kekal lah hendaknya.

Sambil-sambil tengok bola ( perlu ke nak selit ? ), layankan kejap editor baru ni. Best jugak. Ada template baru dan banyak gambar menarik dan mudah nak edit ( bagi mereka yang pemalas takde masa banyak ).

Makin lama teknologi makin canggih. Kita pula ? Makin malas.

Sekian.

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Only you

Each and every limb becomes numb
Heart beats fast
Building a hope from crumbs
For a dream that would last.


Explosions of emotion inside
Nonchalant outside.


Blood runs through the veins, arteries, capillaries
As though they've never run before
Feelings varies
At the sight of what the heart longed for.


Only you...
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If I were to create a Martian...

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your blog, delete my answers, type on your answers and tag as many as your friends here in blog to answer this.okeh, let's check it out guys!

If you're a guy, post this as - My Kind Of Girl.
If you're a girl, post this as - My Kind Of Guy.

Do you need him / her to be good looking?
Good looking as in sedap mata memandang lah. Sepanjang hayat nak menatap muka tu takkan tanak yang good looking kan ?


Smart?
Smart enough to know and understand that he can't be smarter than me. ;p


Preferred age?
Lelaki lambat matang (scientifically proven!) so I prefer older men. Same age also acceptable.


Preferred height?
Taller than 160cm. 


How about sense of humor?
YESSSS ! But the same kind as mine. Nanti kang aku tak paham lawak dia, dia tak paham lawak aku, sakit hati je.


How about piercings?
NO, maybe. Emmm, no. Definitely no piercings allowed !


Accept you for who you are?
Of course lah !


Pink hair?
No.


Mushy or not?
Amenda nih ?


Thin or fat?
Yang sedang-sedang aja. HAHAHA. 


Black, Brown or White? (skin colour).
Serius tak kisah.


Long hair or short hair?
Short, DUH. Tapi long pun ok jugak kot. Sexayyy~


Smells good?
Yuh-huh ! 


Smoker?
Say NO to cigarettes and smokers !


Muscular?
Some muscle wouldn't hurt me. ;p


Plays piano/bass/acoustic guitar/violin?
All of the above. 


Sings very good?
YESSSS !


With glasses?
Lagi sekali, tak kisah.


With braces?
Boleh ja (macam Shahir!) ;)


Shy type?
No. If he's shy then I'm going to be shy too. But if he's shy and does NOT appears to be shy, then it's ok.


Rebel or good boy / girl
Good but adventurous because I'm a rebel and couch-potato. ;p


Active or passive?
He needs a LOT of energy to be with me. HAHA.


Singer or dancer?
Dancer lagi sexy kot. ;p


Hip hop?
Yuck.


Dimples?
Omaigod, please please pleaseeeeeee !


Bookworm?
YESSSS !


Mr / Mrs Love Letter?
YESSSS !


Playful?
Hmm boleh lah.


Flirt?
No. I might pass him off as a pervert.


Poem writer?
YESSSS !


Serious?
When he needs to be.


Painter?
Nope.


Religious?

He holds the key to my heaven so if he's not in the right path then I'm doomed for hell, which is the last place I want to be. So, yeah, I'd like him to be religious.

Someone who like to tease people?
No because teasing people around makes you a jerk.


Speaks 10 languages?
Por fa vor ! 


Loyal or Faithful?
Doesn't everyone wants their partner to be just that ? -__-"


Loves children?
The most important thing.




P/S: Ini hanya sekadar suka-suka. Jangan amik serius. 
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Sesi soal jawab paling cool abad ini.

Moh tanya di sini. Segala soalan, tak kira bodoh piang punya atau pun bercirikan akademik mahupun soalan-soalan remeh-temeh kau yang takde orang nak layan boleh ditanya kepada aku di saluran ini. 

Jangan cakap aku kuat terpengaruh dengan orang (walaupun ada sedikit kebenaran di situ). Cuba tanya kenapa aku buat benda ni. Tanya kat sini tau, bukan tempat lain.

Lai lai lai lai buah lai...Lama oh tak makan buah tu. Hmm....


Klik sini lah, bukan ayat kat atas tuh. HOH !
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