Intoxicating.

I am so in love with Hayden Christensen and Josh Hartnett. Both of them are so hot. With the capital H, I tell you. Haha.

Have you watched Star Wars : Attack of The Clones ? I just love seeing Anakin's eyes ( or should I say Hayden's eyes ? ). When he was staring at Padme. So sexy. I prefer Hayden with Anakin's looks. So manly. The same goes to Joshie. I like his character in Wicker Park. Very sweet and romantic. d;)

How I wish someone who has the same characteristics as Anakin/Hayden/Josh wants me. Adoi. Mula dah nak berangan. Anyway, I think all of us, females, wants that. But I'm sure with a partner so good looking as them would be hard to maintain.

That's it for today.

Complex.

I went out today. With my sister and Nizam, my cousin. We watched Cinta. It's not as good as I thought it would be. But it's kinda ok for me. Boleh lah. There's Que Haidar. So cute ! And his voice. Mencairkan. Haha. I can fall in love with him just by hearing his voice. d;)

There's a quote in the movie, 'A little girl taught me love is about letting go'. Somehow I kept remembering it. I don't know why. I let him go. I know we're not going to be together again. ( Eventhough sometimes there's somewhere in my heart hoping we would ) But I'm afraid. Afraid that what had happened before would happen again.

I don't know which is true. There's a saying that once you've become exes you can't turn back time. There is another saying that if there's still love why bother running away ?

Love. It's very complicated. But somehow we can't run away from it...

Missing ?

It's 3.43 in the morning. I'm missing him so badly. So very much. It is sucky. To miss him and can't be with him, knowing he wasn't mine anymore. But at the same time pretending to be his friend. Why can't I let him go ?

Ku harungi hari demi hari bersama wajah tak mungkin kembali....

Anuar Zain - Perpisahan

That's what I'm in right now.

Exhausted.

Yesterday I went to IMR's library to find more informations on Syphilis and Treponema pallidum ( the title for my thesis is diagnosis of syphilis using VDRL and TPHA test at Lablink ). I tried looking at the journal side first. But to no avail, I found nothing on the subject. So I moved on to the books side. Helmi, Zuhdi and Ain was already there. It was much easier for me to find all the infromations I need there. In fact there were loads that I can use. Since I'm not a staff or member of IMR, I can't borrow any of the books there. Instead I had to photocopied it.

We were there until 1pm. We went to Lablink after we had our lunch. Nothing much happen after that.

The same things goes for today.

Actually I am too tired to post anything. Later.

In denial.

Haha. Aku memonteng lagi hari nie. d:p

I slept late last night. Really late. Like, 3.30 late. And I didn't have a good sleep. Tidur2 ayam je. I was awaken before 6 am by the temperature. Sejuk yang teramat. I went to the toilet to settle my business. After that, it seems like my bed has a magnetic power. I went back to sleep. Haha. An hour later my mom entered my room. She asked why am I still in bed. I answered, 'Malas nak bangun'. And with that my mom turn off the lights back and shut the door.

My brother had an accident last night. That explained why he was home without the car.
My sisters and I was wondering where was it. Only this morning we knew about the accident. There goes a few thousands more for my dad to get the car repaired. Nampak nye mega sale kali nie tak dapt la nak shopping. * sigh *

I felt guilty not going to work today. Today was supposed to be my first day at a new department. But then, I actually do not feel like moving into a new department yet. Maybe I'll stay for a week. Kesian Kak Rina. And the baby inside her. The reason why I felt so bad was because I didn't tell anyone I'm not going today. I kinda forgot to take their number. I don't even have Farid or Zuhdi's number. I hope tomorrow is going to go on smoothly.

That's it for now. I guess.

Dramatic. Nahh.

Hey, it's me again.

I didn't go to work today. I had to go to college to send my first draft for thesis. But unfortunately, my supervisor is on leave. Sabar je lah. Penat je bawak laptop. Met Kak Tasha and Zarifi today. We went to eat at Plaza Alam Sentral. Zarifi belanja ! Haha. Farid and Helmi said they're coming to college today but I didn't see them. Oh ! Met Datuk S also. Hua hua hua.

As for yesterday's happenings. Nothing much happened really. Oh yea. Farid punched me. Jahat kan ? Actually, it wasn't a punch lah. He accidentally knocked me in the face. He held up the specimen bottle to see what's inside. And being the nosy one, I wanted to see what's in it too. I was on his left side and he held up his left hand. So you know what happen next.

Yesterday was one of the bored day. Bosan sangat lah. Ciao !

Updates.

Hey ! I'm back. After quite some time now.

Things been going on pretty well now. I'm doing my practical right now at Lablink. It's near the Tawakal Hospital. I started on last 13th November until 16th February. So it has been almost 4 weeks since I started practical. And so far it's been very fun and enjoyable. Apart from the hectic scene at work, of course. Although there's a lot of things need to be done there, I enjoyed doing it. I'm adapting to doing things 2 times faster. And I learned new things everyday. So senang cakap, best gile lar. I can't wait for the next morning to come. Oh, I have to take a long commute everyday. My dad would drop me off at the Subang Jaya KTM station. From there, I took the train to KL Sentral. And then, I board the monorail to Titiwangsa. It took me 1 hour and 30 minutes to reach my workplace.

Besides me, there's 2 guys from my course also. Farid and Zuhdi. At first I don't talk much to them. And being the adorable guys, the approached me first. Bagus lah. Because I was quite shy to make the first move. I am quite familiar seeing Farid at the college. But never been in an eye-to-eye conversation before. Both of them are kinda fun to be with. Farid is the ultimate bully ! He always saying things that would make me wonder if he's telling the fact or not. I've always been the prey. Geram betul ! Zuhdi is soft. Not as in soft, pondan guy. But very polite and soft-spoken. With girls lar. Not with the guys, obviously. Actually, both of them are very polite. It's very rare to find such a polite guy around these days.

From all of the staff there, I'm quite close to 2 people. Kak Liza and Kak Rina. Kak Liza is from the Haematology Lab while Kak Rina is from Serology. The first 2 weeks I started at Haema. Now I'm in Sero. I had my lunch with both of them. ( Since those 2 guys never ask me to join them ) So nice of them. Everyday we had lunch at a stall which they called Kedai Mat Rock ( because the owner is kinda rock fan with his printed tee and sunglass. You get the picture right ? ) And let me tell you something. The other day I had 7 prawns, a scoop of mixed veggie, a scoop of crinkled potato and sambal belacan and iced lemon tea for drinks. Guees what's the price I've to pay ? RM5++ ? Nope. I paid RM3.50. Quite cheap right ? And the food tastes great too. Thanks to both of my 'kakaks' for recommending the stall.

Oh yea. I work everyday except for Sunday. On weekdays, I started at 9am until 6pm. But I usually get back at 6.15 or 6.30pm. On Saturdays, I start at the same time until 2pm. Imagine. Working this hard and not being paid. Sedih kan ? At work, I rarely sit down. Mostly, I'm on my 2 feets and walking around. But as I mentioned earlier, I had fun doing it.

I think that's it for today.