Intoxicating.

I am so in love with Hayden Christensen and Josh Hartnett. Both of them are so hot. With the capital H, I tell you. Haha.

Have you watched Star Wars : Attack of The Clones ? I just love seeing Anakin's eyes ( or should I say Hayden's eyes ? ). When he was staring at Padme. So sexy. I prefer Hayden with Anakin's looks. So manly. The same goes to Joshie. I like his character in Wicker Park. Very sweet and romantic. d;)

How I wish someone who has the same characteristics as Anakin/Hayden/Josh wants me. Adoi. Mula dah nak berangan. Anyway, I think all of us, females, wants that. But I'm sure with a partner so good looking as them would be hard to maintain.

That's it for today.

Complex.

I went out today. With my sister and Nizam, my cousin. We watched Cinta. It's not as good as I thought it would be. But it's kinda ok for me. Boleh lah. There's Que Haidar. So cute ! And his voice. Mencairkan. Haha. I can fall in love with him just by hearing his voice. d;)

There's a quote in the movie, 'A little girl taught me love is about letting go'. Somehow I kept remembering it. I don't know why. I let him go. I know we're not going to be together again. ( Eventhough sometimes there's somewhere in my heart hoping we would ) But I'm afraid. Afraid that what had happened before would happen again.

I don't know which is true. There's a saying that once you've become exes you can't turn back time. There is another saying that if there's still love why bother running away ?

Love. It's very complicated. But somehow we can't run away from it...

Missing ?

It's 3.43 in the morning. I'm missing him so badly. So very much. It is sucky. To miss him and can't be with him, knowing he wasn't mine anymore. But at the same time pretending to be his friend. Why can't I let him go ?

Ku harungi hari demi hari bersama wajah tak mungkin kembali....

Anuar Zain - Perpisahan

That's what I'm in right now.

Exhausted.

Yesterday I went to IMR's library to find more informations on Syphilis and Treponema pallidum ( the title for my thesis is diagnosis of syphilis using VDRL and TPHA test at Lablink ). I tried looking at the journal side first. But to no avail, I found nothing on the subject. So I moved on to the books side. Helmi, Zuhdi and Ain was already there. It was much easier for me to find all the infromations I need there. In fact there were loads that I can use. Since I'm not a staff or member of IMR, I can't borrow any of the books there. Instead I had to photocopied it.

We were there until 1pm. We went to Lablink after we had our lunch. Nothing much happen after that.

The same things goes for today.

Actually I am too tired to post anything. Later.

In denial.

Haha. Aku memonteng lagi hari nie. d:p

I slept late last night. Really late. Like, 3.30 late. And I didn't have a good sleep. Tidur2 ayam je. I was awaken before 6 am by the temperature. Sejuk yang teramat. I went to the toilet to settle my business. After that, it seems like my bed has a magnetic power. I went back to sleep. Haha. An hour later my mom entered my room. She asked why am I still in bed. I answered, 'Malas nak bangun'. And with that my mom turn off the lights back and shut the door.

My brother had an accident last night. That explained why he was home without the car.
My sisters and I was wondering where was it. Only this morning we knew about the accident. There goes a few thousands more for my dad to get the car repaired. Nampak nye mega sale kali nie tak dapt la nak shopping. * sigh *

I felt guilty not going to work today. Today was supposed to be my first day at a new department. But then, I actually do not feel like moving into a new department yet. Maybe I'll stay for a week. Kesian Kak Rina. And the baby inside her. The reason why I felt so bad was because I didn't tell anyone I'm not going today. I kinda forgot to take their number. I don't even have Farid or Zuhdi's number. I hope tomorrow is going to go on smoothly.

That's it for now. I guess.

Dramatic. Nahh.

Hey, it's me again.

I didn't go to work today. I had to go to college to send my first draft for thesis. But unfortunately, my supervisor is on leave. Sabar je lah. Penat je bawak laptop. Met Kak Tasha and Zarifi today. We went to eat at Plaza Alam Sentral. Zarifi belanja ! Haha. Farid and Helmi said they're coming to college today but I didn't see them. Oh ! Met Datuk S also. Hua hua hua.

As for yesterday's happenings. Nothing much happened really. Oh yea. Farid punched me. Jahat kan ? Actually, it wasn't a punch lah. He accidentally knocked me in the face. He held up the specimen bottle to see what's inside. And being the nosy one, I wanted to see what's in it too. I was on his left side and he held up his left hand. So you know what happen next.

Yesterday was one of the bored day. Bosan sangat lah. Ciao !

Updates.

Hey ! I'm back. After quite some time now.

Things been going on pretty well now. I'm doing my practical right now at Lablink. It's near the Tawakal Hospital. I started on last 13th November until 16th February. So it has been almost 4 weeks since I started practical. And so far it's been very fun and enjoyable. Apart from the hectic scene at work, of course. Although there's a lot of things need to be done there, I enjoyed doing it. I'm adapting to doing things 2 times faster. And I learned new things everyday. So senang cakap, best gile lar. I can't wait for the next morning to come. Oh, I have to take a long commute everyday. My dad would drop me off at the Subang Jaya KTM station. From there, I took the train to KL Sentral. And then, I board the monorail to Titiwangsa. It took me 1 hour and 30 minutes to reach my workplace.

Besides me, there's 2 guys from my course also. Farid and Zuhdi. At first I don't talk much to them. And being the adorable guys, the approached me first. Bagus lah. Because I was quite shy to make the first move. I am quite familiar seeing Farid at the college. But never been in an eye-to-eye conversation before. Both of them are kinda fun to be with. Farid is the ultimate bully ! He always saying things that would make me wonder if he's telling the fact or not. I've always been the prey. Geram betul ! Zuhdi is soft. Not as in soft, pondan guy. But very polite and soft-spoken. With girls lar. Not with the guys, obviously. Actually, both of them are very polite. It's very rare to find such a polite guy around these days.

From all of the staff there, I'm quite close to 2 people. Kak Liza and Kak Rina. Kak Liza is from the Haematology Lab while Kak Rina is from Serology. The first 2 weeks I started at Haema. Now I'm in Sero. I had my lunch with both of them. ( Since those 2 guys never ask me to join them ) So nice of them. Everyday we had lunch at a stall which they called Kedai Mat Rock ( because the owner is kinda rock fan with his printed tee and sunglass. You get the picture right ? ) And let me tell you something. The other day I had 7 prawns, a scoop of mixed veggie, a scoop of crinkled potato and sambal belacan and iced lemon tea for drinks. Guees what's the price I've to pay ? RM5++ ? Nope. I paid RM3.50. Quite cheap right ? And the food tastes great too. Thanks to both of my 'kakaks' for recommending the stall.

Oh yea. I work everyday except for Sunday. On weekdays, I started at 9am until 6pm. But I usually get back at 6.15 or 6.30pm. On Saturdays, I start at the same time until 2pm. Imagine. Working this hard and not being paid. Sedih kan ? At work, I rarely sit down. Mostly, I'm on my 2 feets and walking around. But as I mentioned earlier, I had fun doing it.

I think that's it for today.

Extra.

Dua jejaka tampan. Haha. ( Malam tu jek.. )

A night of styles.

MAJLIS MAKAN MALAM SEMESTER AKHIR DTMP

INTAKE OGOS '04

TARIKH : 13 SEPTEMBER 2006

TEMPAT : QUALITY HOTEL, SHAH ALAM

MASA : 8.30 P.M

TEMA : TRADISIONAL KONTEMPORARI

The dinner was held last night at Quality Hotel. It was organised by couple of groups of the last semester students ( mostly done by Group 2 and Group 4... ). Overall, it was OK. Blah blah blah.. There's a story behind the 'OK'. But I'm not in the mood to tell the whole morning glory story. It was not the students fault. 'Nuff said.

The only reason I was excited about this dinner is because I want to dress up and spend the whole night in glam with my fellow classmates ( also to see our lecturers not in their usual clothing d:p ). Everyone wore their best clothes. Rolis and Zarifi ( the only guys in my class ) both wore baju melayu. Rolis wore black baju melayu ( matching dgn I. d;) ) and Zarifi wore coco coloured baju melayu complete with his songkok+brooch. Sangat tampan !! Just look at them. ( Haha. I've a thing for guys in baju melayu..d;D )

I like this picture...

The dinner started at 8.30 p.m. Students arrived with their traditional clothes on. Some wore sarees but majority wore Malay traditional clothes such as kebaya, baju kurung and kebaya nyonya. The guys mostly wore baju melayu and Indian traditional clothes ( kurta ke namanye ? ). Our lecturers arrived around 9 p.m. We had to stand along the red carpet to welcome them ( kate dinner semester akhir kan tapi lecturer yg disambut...hmmm ). En. Suif and Cik Aliza wore the same colour ( mcm pengantin dah haa.. ). En. Shamsy didn't wore as I told him to ( I asked him to wear his baju melayu with sampin ). Among all the lecturers, En. Sharul was the simplest. He wore the Indian traditional clothes and with this green cap which looked like communist army uniform thingie. I thought he'll be the most glam among the lecturers. But that night it was En. Suif.

En. Suif and Cik Aliza. Some people said they were engaged. if it's true, Selamat Bertunang ! If it's not, YEAY ! d:p

Available ! Haha.

L to R : Kak Mazwan, Kak Tasha, Syafa and me

Group 4 !!

After all of the programmes, we took pictures of the lecturers. I've taken with almost all of the lecturers ( but I forgot to take with my own mentor ).

For more pictures, http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/elephantoons/my_photos

Bleargh.

Holiday time. Gila membosankan. Arghh...

Dah nak habis pun. Next week. PULAU PANGKORRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Will be missed.

Back from left : Syafa, Kak Tasha, me, Zarifi, Kak Mazwan

Front from left : Kak Ayu, Ely, Kak Ina, Rolis

Not in the picture : Sue, Nadiah, Az, Rey, Fazilah, Haizun, Ayu

Photographer : Azie

Not there : Thulasi & Usha

This picture was taken on our Bowling Day. The whole class went. But some went karaoke-ing. Those who are not in the picture of course.

Ratu Bowling - Syafa ( she striked twice ! )

Ratu Longkang - Azie ( well, you've guessed why.. )

Since we're in the last semester of our course, there has been a lot of 'belanja-membelanjaing'. Everyday ( not exactly everyday actually ) there will be someone's turn. I've took my turn. Twice ! Zarifi, Ely, Azie, Kak Tasha and Syafa had the honour of pau-ing me. Today it was Zarifi's turn. He treated us with KFCs. Fully loaded man. ( Thanks Zarifi ! ) This belanja-membelanjaing thing does not involve the whole class. Only to some certain people. Whoever with the person who suggested gets to be treated. Sori la kepada yang tidak turut serta...

Right now, we have Pangkor on our plans for this last semester. It's kind of sad actually. 3 years of togetherness. After this, all of us will went our separate ways. Some would be in Kedah, Perak, Melaka, Perlis and Sabah. Really going to miss them. A lot. Especially my 'sisters' that I've grown very close with, Kak Mazwan and Kak Tasha. Adoi, emotional plak skrg nie... Dalam hidup mesti ada pertemuan dan perpisahan. So whether we like it or not, we just have to accept it.

Problemo.

Too much work to do, too many things in the head, yet, so little time to have.

Byk betul masalah !!

The Fevers.

Haha. I just read my previous post. I wrote malas nak tulis tapi tulis jugak. Agak panjang pulak tue. Bengong nye otak.

Mak is having a fever. Not the World Cup fever but a real fever. You know, the 'your-body-temp-is-more-than-37°' fever. She had one day of MC. Tapi esok bukan nye kerja pun. Kira macam 3 hari cuti jugak lah. Kesian Mak.

Nothing much to write today. Basically, I just lazying in front of the TV, eat, drink and screaming around with my sisters. It's just my ordinary day with nothing to do. Really can't wait when I can attend classes and meet up with my classmates. Doing assignments, presentations and tutorials. Gosh, I so miss it. Ow. En. Suif is in charge of the LI ( Latihan Industri ). We'll meet again mista ! Hehe.

AF4 vs. World Cup. Mana yg menang ek ? Haha. For me, it's both. I'm a fan of the Japanese team. So I'll be watching both. Tapi macam la Japan main tiap game. But if there's a clash between Japan's game and AF4 I'm going to go for AF4. Hehe. Bola boleh tengok ulangan. Tetap sama. AF tengok ulangan tak best sebab orang lain mesti bitau ape yg jadi. It is better to know it by myself.

Rasa macam nak keluar la pulak. Q's going out with his friend. Nak ikut jugak tapi mesti kene marah nanti. Hmm........

Normal. Perfect. Rough.

Macam malass je nak menulis di sini. Penaaaatttt .......

I went bowling today with Q. We played 3 games each at Plaza Alam Sentral ( sebab murah k ? ). The ball I used was not in its perfect condition. The holes are perfect but it's hurting me. Dalam tue boleh pulak kasar. Sampai luka jari aku guna bola tue. But I won. Haha. By 4 points je. Still. Hehehe.

I think I'm a ' orang gila kasut '. Banyak sangat rasanya kasut yg nak di beli. Heih. Who can satisfy my passion for shoes ? Not him of course. Kalau dah kerja boleh la kot. Haha. Merepek. Anyway, bought the brown jacket at blook. Since I arrived late at Subang Parade, I just walk in the shop and straightly ask the salesgirl about the jacket. And there was one brown jacket left. It was on the mannequin. I checked it for any rough edges. It was perfect. I paid for it straight away. The salesgirl looked kinda confused because I didn't even try it on. I said I have tried it before. So she was like, "ok whatever, you're weird". And I was like, "biar ah aku tanak try ke ape".

That's it lah for today.

Pure joy.

I managed to watch the must-see movies yesterday and the day before yesterday. The movie was X-Men 3: The Last Stand and The Da Vinci Code.

On Tuesday, Aunt Chun brought the four of us ( 3 of my sisters and I ) to Sunway Pyramid to watch X-Men. His son, Shafiq wanted to watch it so badly. And because it is school holiday so there wasn't much trouble to go. We watched the 4.40pm show. It was awesome. Full with action I must say. The Last Stand is way cooler than the previous two of X-Men movies. Not too mention that Wolverine is getting sexier day by day. Ha ha. Storm has more lines in the movie. And her haircut is a MUST to follow. Not the colour though. But I think Professor X should be given another way to be killed.

At night, Am G brought us to Klang. To Aqueelah's house. Right after he got back from work. We missed her so much. It can't be hold anymore. We just had to pinch those chubby cheek and see those beautiful smile of hers. At first she was kinda shy ( imagine, we haven't seen her nearly 5 months ++ ). But after half an hour later, she showed the true Aqueelah. Comel sangat ! Geram je tengok dia. Just look at her.

Her mother said when she's picking what to wear she would choose anything that has pink. She's a bit boyish but she likes pink. Adoi. Kelakar ah.

Da Vinci Code was so satisfying. I like to watch something that made me use my brain. Like CSI. At the end of the story I would feel that I had accomplished something. Da Vinci Code will make you think. It's something that you must watch from the second it start till the last scene. And the graphic is amazing.

I didn't get the chance to caress my kitties. Rindu sama mereka. Especially AG. He's the only one who is so eager to wander in the house. Others still afraid and shy. Suprisingly, the two adult cat is female ! I thought one of them are the dad. Well apparently not because just now I saw the cat who I called Bapak was milking Juju and Mimi. I don't know how to differentiate between a female cat and a male cat. Tak kisah lah. Janji ada anak kucing. Here's a picture of Juju.

At last.

Akhirnya ! Dapat juga aku duduk di hadapan komputer ini. Setelah sekian lama menanti.

My sisters are so damn online-addict. Macam ada je perkataan tue. Anyway. I can't post any blog because the computers are not available. It it because my two fat sisters are hogging over the computers the whole bloody time. And now the school holiday is here I won't get a chance to online. Not until one of them are asleep of course.

Besides being online, I've got new things to focus on right now. I have 4 little kitties to take care of. And they are so adorable. The black one named BB, white named Mimi, orange named Juju and the black&white named AG. My favourites are Juju and AG. AG is the 'manja'est among all of them. He is not scared with people. At least not with the people he recognized. Everytime I open the door he'll rushed over.

This computer is making me irritated. Lembab gile ! Signing out.

Shocked. Goosebumped. Takut.

I was having an emotional breakdown yesterday. I was feeling down for some reasons. And I cried and cried and cried. Yesterday was the worst that ever happen since I first got it. Usually it'll stop after some time. But yesterday it went on for about 5 hours. So, you can imagine how my eyes swollened.

Life sucks. A sentence with just two words but so many reasons to say it out loud. Ah. Malas lah cakap pasal nie.

I am chatting to one of The Sister. The 2nd sister. But still. Sejuk tangan nieh ! Aduh. Jangan tersilap cakap dah ah. First impression beb ! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. Baru kakak belum mak lagi. And I soo know the latest news in the family. It is so shocking !

He's taking his midterm exam right now. I soo need to talk to him. Now ! Lambat nye nak pukul 4.30.

She's not replying. Did I say something wrong ? Adoi. Ok. She's there. ( What crap am I typing right now ? Haha. I need to tell someone about it. In this case, something. Tengah menggelabah nie. )

I want to start taking the Biocell thingie. Abg Hasli said it would make the cramps less hurt. So, I hope Mak will buy it soon. Ida have been persuaded her to buy ever since Abg Hasli and Am Z promoting it. But it doesn't taste good.

Banyak cakap lah. Post another tonight.

Problems.

Due to some connection problem I cannot post last night. There has been a personal problem too. So yea.

PC kat rumah nie banyak betul masalah. Satu lembab ( sbb model lama ). Satu lagi tak boleh nak on ( taktau apa masalah ). Satu lagi boleh on tapi delicate sgt. Langgar sket terus off. Memang mencabar kesabaran pengguna.

Aunt Pah and Uncle Ajis was supposed to be here around 4pm. But until now ( 7.41pm ), there's no sign of them. Tak jadi dtg kot. Maybe tomorrow.

20++ days more. The time is sure passing by slowly. Bila la mak abah nak bawak Ida beli barang keperluan dia. Boleh tumpang sekaki. Haha. I need a lot of stuff before the semester starts. Eg : stationaries, clothings, bags,shoes. ( Mcm dah pernah tulis sebelum nie. Hmm. Biar lah .Dah tulis pun. )

Lack of honesty and communication. And it is not from my side only. Try to realise that. Ok. Thank you.

An effort. Night.

E'ee. Bosannya kehidupan di kala cuti. Few days back I told myself to go revise my past subjects. Since every subject for this coming semester are continuous from the past subjects. Tapi susah lah nak study. Bangun dah la 'pagi'. Nak sms lagi. Selalu angan-angan mat jenin lah.

Last semester. No matter what, I have to improve drastically. I have to. Kalau dapat masuk dean's list lagi lah best. Insya allah.

Current game, Ignoring. Have you heard of that ? It's a two-players game. Both players ignores each other. Siapa tegur dulu dia kalah. I always on the losing side. But now I feel like winning.

I hate the game.

An effort. Day.

I made an effort to get back my friends email address. I am doing so because I want to keep in touch. Some said I'm missing. Sebenarnya tak hilang pun. Kalau korang call ajak jumpa mesti tak hilang. d:p

I created new email address because I did not remember the password of my old one. It has been almost a year since I last checked my email. Email yg lama la. Been busy with college stuff. You know how tough it gets when you're juggling through 6 science subjects.

A month away from getting out of kebosanan. Yeay ! Duduk rumah pun tak tau nak buat ape. Nak keluar jgn harap la. With no money inside the purse, macam mana ? Nasib baik ada kredit. boleh jugak la sms. Ha ha.

At the beginning of my holiday 2 months back, I actually planned to look for a job. No. It was before the exam start. Eh tak. Ever since I know there will be a 3 months holiday. Which was before I started my third semester. Tapi sampai sekarang tak kerja pun. Kenapa ? Mak tak bagi.

Walaupun dalam kebosanan tapi tetap bahagia. ( Bluergh ! )

I went to see him once a week. Seminggu je lah boleh tahan rindu. I love his presence. Just by him being there is enough. Ish. Terlebih la pulak. Dah la. Malas nak tulis.

The first.

My first post !